|Baby Sam 2000|
Written March 27, 2000.
Sam is here! All 7 lbs. 11.7 oz of pure joy! He was 21 inches long and born at 1:22 am on Friday March 24th. I had a little nubane that helped with the in between part of a total of three contractions, but the delivery overall was natural. No episiotomy this time. And I only needed a few stitches. It was painful, but an awesome painful. It was so intense and I will never forget it. When they put him on my belly, I could not stop touching him and did not want to let him go! He is beautiful and healthy and really here! It was love at first sight and for some reason I feel/felt a little more protective about him than I did dd (dear daughter). Maybe it was because I had a few more problems this pg (pregnancy) with spotting, etc... that I was more worried that he would not make it... anyway... his is wonderful.
About the labor... at about 7:25 I was coming home with dd from the neighbors and she was trying to get away, so I picked her up and had a major contraction, well just before I entered the garage I had this huge gush of fluid run down my leg, through my pants, on my shoes and the driveway. I was not sure if I peed or if it was my water. I went inside and took everything off and it did not smell like pee so I called dh (dear husband: these were shortcuts we used to communicate.) He was at work and I told him I may have broken my water. I told him to sit tight and I would call him back after I talked to the Dr. Well after three pages I could not get a hold of him, so I call L & D and they told me to come in. Dh came home meanwhile, he said that he could not wait and they sent him home. He smelled my pants and also thought it did not smell like pee. So we got ready to go. We called mil and finally got her to agree to come over. My neighbor came over so we could leave right away. Dh did give dd a quick bath so that she would be all ready for bed.
We drove to the hospital, I was having contras, but not real bad and only 5 min. to 8 min. apart. We checked in and went upstairs. I got undressed and the nurse checked me and said I was only 3 cm and my water had not broken. So I guess it was pee, just not smelly pee lol. (side note: I still think my water broke!!) Anyway she told me they would probably send me home. Well then the Dr. came in and ripped my insides apart, said I was a good 4, he was going to break my water and we were going to have a baby. He told us the nurses were busy and just wanted to send someone home, but this was a game and to just act like I was in pain Well I was after they broke my water. From 9:30 (when they broke it) until delivery, it was no fun. Dh was a good coach. He even had to help me go potty four times in the bed pan. They would not let me get up in case of the cord prolapsing. So I was in bed the whole time. (little man is eatinng so I am typing one handed) The end was no fun because I was sitting at 7 cm and I had the urge to push. I dilated to ten so fast and was climbing the bed with the urge. They barely got me in the stir-ups and two big pushes later his head was out and then one more for his body The placenta was no fun. But was so worth it. It was the most intense yet awesome/wonderful pain of my life! (With dd I did have a local because of the episiotomy so this time was different with no local...)
He is a good little guy. He has really taken to nursing and that is going well. Although I am so huge right now that I could feed five babies. The hospital stay was nice, but Friday late morning little man gave us a scare. After his circumcision, he started getting blue in his mouth and his arms and legs. They ended up putting him in the warmer because his hr was low and his circulation was bad. But by the end of the day and some major tlc by mom, he was better. Except for a few short trips to the nursery for weight and his 48 hour test, I did not let him out of my sight and would go everywhere with him. I even had them give him his first bath in the room with me.
We got home yesterday afternoon and all is going well. (Other than the fact that dh went golfing with the neighbor and left me with dd.) Thank you for helping me through this pg and for your friendship. You are an awesome bunch of ladies and I glad to have you.
Lisa and Sam"the little man"Kenneth.
Postscript: Re-typing this and re-reading it is very emotional for me. I can replay all these memories like movies in my mind. I remember in the middle of the night while we were still in the hospital, being all alone with Sam (My Ex slept at home). He was sleeping on me and I was so high on adrenaline and love that I couldn't all asleep. God had given me this perfect "little man" and I remember feeling so blessed, a feeling that has never faded. Sam and I have a special bond. He has always been my sweet boy and has always been such a love. One of my favorite memories from this summer at that lake was during a late night boat ride with just Jerry, Sam and I. We went out to look at the stars and say good-bye to the lake. On the way back to the cabin, Sam fell asleep on me. It felt like when he was just a little guy and would snuggle with me. I truly felt like I was in heaven.
I love you my sweet Sam. You hold a very special place in my heart and I am so happy to be your mom. Every moment I am away from you I miss you like crazy and pray to be with you again. Happy Birthday and always remember... I love you to the moon and stars and back!